Kabod.

I just want to stay here.

“I want to dwell in the house of God forever.”

There is a kind of joy I’ve tasted this week that words cannot properly hold. The kind that makes you want to stay… just stay there, in His presence.

It’s chapel week in my school, and the theme is Carriers of His Presence. Yesterday, Minister Laura Banjo spoke about how tangible God’s presence is—and I felt it. Not just as knowledge, but as confirmation. God is Spirit, yes… but His presence is real. You can feel Him.

And it made me think…it’s so easy to just live life anyhow. But carrying God? That’s intentional, it’s not accidental. It’s a life of awareness, of choosing Him again and again, even in the small moments.

It’s waking up every day and remembering who you belong to. It’s also saying, “Hmm… I didn’t really act like Jesus there. Let me try again.”

And I think It's beautiful to know that I can carry the Spirit of God, that I can walk as a reflection of His glory and that humbles me.

Today, under the ministration of Minister Paul Tomisin, it settled in my heart that: God's presence is everything.

So I don’t want this to be something I only experience in chapel. I want to take it with me. Keep it. Live in it.

I want to dwell in the house of God forever, until it is no longer a place I go, but a reality I carry.

I am learning to be conscious of heaven, to remember that I am not alone, that angels move with me, that my life is held within something divine.

So I refuse to live lightly. I carry too much glory for that.

I want to live in such a way that my life quietly says—God is here.

I heard Minister Tomisin sing this song live and direct today, not from Spotify o.😝

And I've been thinking, Do you know what it means to love recklessly?

To give without fear of loss, to stay without keeping score, to choose someone over and over again?

It moves me to tears sometimes, how gentle He is with me.

Because a word is enough for the wise, but me? I need like 10,000 words.😭And still, He doesn’t rush me. He teaches me slowly, patiently, tenderly. God really knows how to handle me.

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Jesus is recklessly in love with you. Deeply. Fully. Without caution.

And I wish you could feel it the way I did today.

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